Blogging and writing book reviews won’t make me rich. The well-known bloggers I follow are constantantly crying poor and asking for donations. I do not have the energy, desire and probably not the talent to match their output.
Being a marginally public personna has made me a handful of online acquaintances, which I appreciate. I get called names, which is only to be expected. I expand my horizons. People post useful leads, and I push myself to research my topics. It has been enjoyable.
I am making enemies. That is not a good idea for a father with a young family. I have long been critical of the governments of the United States and Europe. While they can deal harshly with dissenters, they usually don’t bother with small fry like myself. Ukraine’s enemies are of another sort. Closer, less scrupulous and less subject to scrutiny. I should not go out of my way to irk them.
This era is witnessing a clash of world orders. Enlightenment liberalism has passed its apogee. It has sunk into indolence and the intolerance of enforced tolerance. The Muslim world remains as the Bible said of Ishmael: “And he (Islam) will be a wild man; his hand will be against every man, and every man’s hand against him; and he shall dwell in the presence of all his brethren.” China, despite major problems, seems likely to continue its assent. Lastly, Russia remains as Chaadaev described it 250 years ago, living “in the narrowest of presents, without past or future, amidst dull stagnation… Alone in the world, we have not given the world anything , have not taken anything from the world, have contributed nothing to the advance of human thought, and have distorted whatever traces of that advance we did receive.”
Russia’s very resistance to change may position it well in comparison to other cultures whose experimentation seems to be their undoing. In any case, one does not reason with steppe raiders, and one is wise not to antagonize them. Becoming meek and invisible seems a wise strategic move. I should dedicate myself to preparing my child for adult life. Whatever battles are to be fought are more his than mine.
I’ve deleted a couple of my more aggressive book reviews. I may do the same with entries in this blog, though it has the protection of a very small readership. Nobody cares. I’m resolved to spend more time with the music, English and other lessons we are conducting for toddlers. I plan to learn more about early childhood education and to continue to improve my Russian as my son develops his own knowledge of the language. The Christian posture is to recognize that the individual is virtually powerless to change the path of history, and to pray that God will take care of one’s family. We’ll do all we can, and pray for help. And I expect I’ll be writing less.